Changing Colors

So I have to say, things have been changing changing and changing. I have to say, it's like I've been waiting on a bigger change that any that have happened. I have lost love, lost friends, lost incoome, lost drive, and the list goes on. I'm not sure where I'm going to be but I'm waiting. I need to stop waiting and try to take some action. Just because I'm going to grad school does not me that my future is going to be bright. Lord knows college didn't do much for me or I didn't do much with my college degree. I'm still like a child trying to figure this all out. I think I understand the whole love thing know. Friendship has recently become confusing and questionable for me. I love my friends to death and I feel like certain friends are going to be there for a life time while others will go and grow in their own direction. Where is the drive I had as a young man, that fire that was under me, the gentle harshness that I was so used to presenting, and that guy that everyone seemed to love.