I like big thangs......

OK,

I never do this, but I thought I would ramble about some of my thoughts. And yes, this is one of the blogs that's totally about me. I LOVE THICK DUDES. I was walking into work today and happen to pass this dude that was outside on the phone. He was not big, but he was a pretty good size. I thought he was fairly attractive, and I didn't even get to see his face. When I was at work the other day, I couldn't take this eyes off all the heaver set guys. Now don't get me wrong, I like nice size boys, but not fat boys. My ex is a pretty good size and I have to say, that probably the one person out of my 2 1/2 relationships that I've been in that I was most sexually attracted to. Yes, I said 1/2 because that was some half ass shit they did, or shall I say didn't do. I promised myself I would let that go but things just keep on appearing. But small and/or tall people are not the most attractive people to me. For all you thick Sexy MF that are out there. My number is 777-9311. I love me some thick boys.

I Need You

If I had you back in my worldI would prove that I could be a better boy
If you let me back in I would sho’nuff never never let you go again
I was so foolish to ever leave your side, Searching for what was right before my eyes
It was me who didnt realize’till it was gone but now I know I need you in my life
Boy I need you bad as my heartbeat,
Baby there’s nothing I wouldn’t do To get back what we had when love was true
No lie I’d give up all I got Just so I could get back in my spot
I need you bad, Since you've been gone, everything's been wrong.
My1nonly

A change gone come.

So a lot has changed with me lately. I miss a lot that I used to have, and I'm done with some new ventures and friends from the past. It's not a bad thing, but its definantly time. A change has come. I can honestly say that no matter how many changes I have gone through, my brother has been there through thick and thin. He's truly my heart. (tear drops) One thing that I have always done is believe in keeping people from my past in my life. That has now changed. Sometimes you need to remove some things to advance yourself. I know know that. I may not be releasing everyone from my past, but my relationship changes with them are a breath of fresh air. I must say that I love you with all my hear, and I want you to be a part of my life more than you can imagine. I have yet to let go of so much that I hold on to and I think about all the time. I wish I could have the relationship with you that I so long for. So I have to learn how to deal with you on whatever level I can. Love is such a fucked up thing. Why do we always love the things that we can't have? Or maybe I haven't changed as much I I should hae.