Perfect Date

I was sitting here thinking about what would be a perfect date for us. All I want is you.

If we're just laying in the bed together holding each other, nothing could be more perfect than that. As long as I'm with you, it will be perfect no matter where we're at.
At church in the pew, prasing him next to you,
Its perfect in my mind, because there's nother we couldn't do.
I only have one thing to say, when you're gone, I'm mising you.

Mother knows best.

I was talking to my mom the other day about all the changes and events that have been happening in my life. As usual, my mom asked me how my ex was doing. Surprisingly I had an answer for her. I told her that he was doing fine and that he had stopped through the other day while I was sick. She asked me how that made me feel and we talked about that for a while. She said, "you know I really wish you two would get back together". I asked her why and she stated, "sometimes you need a break from the things you love to see what it really is". I agreed and she continued explaining how she never seen me so happy like that and how I just had it all together during that time. She also explained how she thought of him as a son and always will. Of course I love my ex and will never be able to have the same type of connection with anyone else that I had or have with him, but I had to explain to her that it has to be a feeling that both parties feel and if that's not possible, there is no use of going forward with something that's already a defeat. All that's in my mind though is the best things in life are worth working and fighting for.

What a Grand Entrance.

Ok, so I was sitting at work and got an email from a coworker. It was a reply to one of those emails I sent out to tell them to look at the new Tranny, Nadia, that's going to be in the Tyler Perry Movie. She's the business by the way. (Not that I'm into Trannies). They Replied like they knew her, but when I asked them if they did, they were like "No, but you know I know people in high places and I'm sure I'll know her soon" Why must these Gays tried to be so much Grander than they really are. I think that's why you see gays with lavish houses/cars; they are so competitive. If you ever hear them talking about having or throwing something, you can be sure that they will compare it to someone or something else to belittle it. Jewelery, over the top, clothes, name brand and stylish, face, done for the gods, Car, Lexus, Mercedes, BMW, something luxurious or sporty, Dog, dressed for the gods as well. And they have the nerve to ask why there are no boys out there. It's hard to be a boy when you have to try to keep up with the life style of these futuristic gays. They are sure to make a Grand Entrance.

I remember.....

Yesterday I was a little under the weather. I remembered though. I remembered how the simple things can be the best things in the world. They always have been. What am I talking about. I'm talking about the simple things in a relationship. Laying in the bed and watching TV, having breakfast, cooking together, taking care of one while they are sick, a simple call to see how the other person is, a feeling that will make you're entire day change. I remember and always will....

Sand at the Beach.

This has been on my mind for about 4 weeks. Bringing sand to the beach or not being happy with your sand. I realize that relationships in Atlanta are hard. My weekly wine night with my friends has brought up some interesting topics. There is an overflow of gays in Atlanta, and it makes it that easy to move from one relationship to the next. Too many people know each other in Atlanta and lord knows these circle of friends are something else. I'm not one to talk. I have people in my life that I have dated before and made friends, but never dated two people in the same circle. We talked about if it was OK to date someone your friends have talked to. I personally don't do that. (well there was that 1 time) I'm really am getting off the subject. I went to a pool party yesterday and realized just what Beyonce said, their ain't nothing out there. People are always searching for the next best thing. They can bring sand to the beach and still find that sand that sparkles a little more. It's all because we are way over stocked in gays. It was a nice pool party though. Is there any quality out there. Low stock= high in demand, high stock=cheap played out, no quality and easily accessible.

You.....

YOU

See, I was lookin' for a love to call mine, but instead I found you

And it was just a true waste of my time and lovin' we mess up, but how come with you?

Sometimes I flip and ask myself why it had to be you

But then I get a grip, it was all a lie and love was so precious until I met you

I don't know why, I saw a price in you,

Every night I close my eyes, oh it's alright, I lose my sight of you

Someone is bound to come along and do time and do better than you

And I won't be left alone, he'll love me for life and surely not careless, selfish like you

How the strength in me has grown and I realize I don't need you

Disrespect you've shown, you can run and hide But all of what happened will come back to you

I don't know why I saw a price in you,

Every night I close my eyes, oh it's alright, I lose my sight of you

Oh, I'm movin on, gonna makin a new start,

I've lived a life and surely it won't be with you

I don't know why I saw a price in you,

Every night I close my eyes, oh it's alright, I lose my sight of you

TRUST and believe.....

My blogs are taking a turn. They're not so creative anymore, but more so my thoughts. So lets talk about trust and believe. I knew for a long time that I have trust issues. Why is it when you decided to trust someone and go against your instinct you always get let down. I have to think about the people I trust in my life. When I think about it, there has really only been a few people that I have 100% trusted. Thanks Grandma, Marcus, Dad, Greg, and Chris. You've never let me down, even when the truth hurts. I know, its sad that my moms name is not on this list. So no one has every really seen the old me accept for my family. I'm trying so hard not to convert back to the mean, I don't give a fuck, fuck you and the world you live in, type of attitude that I had when I was a lot younger. I prayed for it to go away and it did. Praise God. Most recently, I have let things take me their again and only because I had faith in people and situations. My faith belongs with God and I BELIEVE, he can get me through anything. Talking about someone you can trust. This is the one time I have never questioned people leaving my life and also at the same time, let me get close to me that I normally wouldn't . What is going on with me. Most recent events make me want to put up a guard, but I know that's not they direction God is taking me in. I believe that God will put that person that I can trust in my life. So I Trust and Believe. I think its time for my prophecy to begin. I don't know what took me so long to accept my destiny.