TRUST and believe.....

My blogs are taking a turn. They're not so creative anymore, but more so my thoughts. So lets talk about trust and believe. I knew for a long time that I have trust issues. Why is it when you decided to trust someone and go against your instinct you always get let down. I have to think about the people I trust in my life. When I think about it, there has really only been a few people that I have 100% trusted. Thanks Grandma, Marcus, Dad, Greg, and Chris. You've never let me down, even when the truth hurts. I know, its sad that my moms name is not on this list. So no one has every really seen the old me accept for my family. I'm trying so hard not to convert back to the mean, I don't give a fuck, fuck you and the world you live in, type of attitude that I had when I was a lot younger. I prayed for it to go away and it did. Praise God. Most recently, I have let things take me their again and only because I had faith in people and situations. My faith belongs with God and I BELIEVE, he can get me through anything. Talking about someone you can trust. This is the one time I have never questioned people leaving my life and also at the same time, let me get close to me that I normally wouldn't . What is going on with me. Most recent events make me want to put up a guard, but I know that's not they direction God is taking me in. I believe that God will put that person that I can trust in my life. So I Trust and Believe. I think its time for my prophecy to begin. I don't know what took me so long to accept my destiny.