Ting

Today I was feeling pretty down. I didn't know how to let my heart feel. There's nothing worst than you not being able to love the person that has your heart. I recently purchased tickets for me and someone to go see a show that I have always wanted see. The person recently told me that they got back with their ex. My friends say I shouldn't go but my heart says go. I told them exactly how I feel. Let's just say at the end of the day my heart was broken. I must say that I have a really good friend that has made my day and they have no idea how so. They first sent me a text that made me feel better and followed up with a video. I haven't stopped smiling since. The video gave me so much hope. Hope that there is someone out there with a good heart that is on the same level as me when it comes to caring about another. Thanks Buddy. Ting....

It's been a while.

So it's been a while since I've blogged. I know you all missedme. LOL Let me just catch you all up. I'm almost done with Grad school. I have three more classes. I'm still single. I know, not a suprise. I'm doing better financially since I have a new job. It's really cool, but I think I'm going to look for another one soon. Family is doing ok. Took my sister to Miami for her birthday and did a lot of thinking. It was really good to get to spend time with her alone although we didn't do much. Well I'm a lil busy now so I have to get back to you all later to tell you about me lacking a love life. All my friends are in a relationship and I was planning a couple cabin trip. Why do that when I'm the single one. LOL. Not in a rush though. I'm waiting on the right time, right place, and right person.

Staying Wet.

Ok, so this year I must have a signiture thing. I have to say the shower has been my bestfriend in 2010. Here's the stories. Once upon a time there was a shower in the mountains. I was nice and big, glass so you could see through, a tile sitting area in it, and several heads. I was super drunk so I decided to give her a visit to take the edge off. I jumped in the shower and began to enjoy her company. I guess someone was attracted to her as well because they decided to pay her a visit too. I don't remember how and when they got in the shower, but after that, it was nothing but pure wetness everywhere. Can I blame it on the Alcohol, Hell yes. Will I only blame it on the alcohol, HELL no. Just like the alcohol made me attracted to the shower, so did this other person. I got out of the shower and headed to the bed and so did they. Some how the steam followed us. Although I had taken such a long shower, I woke up and felt so dirty afterwards. Reason being, the third party was a friend of an Ex. (THE WORST THING I'VE DONE IN MY LIFE) This past weekend, I went to Miami. Boy was this trip different. Lord knows I love to take long showers and I had the opportunity to take one on Sunday. So every Memorial weekend, we go to the Nude beach in Miami on Sunday. It was hot and I got sweat all over my body. Not only was I nasty, but I had sand all in my skin. When I was in the water, I met someone. We exchanged room numbers and decided to get out to have some personal time and exchange telephone numbers. After talking for a while, we knew that we would need to take a shower to get the filth off of us so we made plans to take one together. We got back and then we did just that. We helped each other get the dirt off of each others bodies and then we laid in the bed and talked. Unlike last time, I didn't feel dirty like the last time, I was nice and clean. I'm working on getting me a huge shower built in my next place. Anyone want to work on the floor plan with me.

I said I was going to blog about you.

So, I ran into some people in Miami, that i know is going to read this, and I said Iwould blog about them. So they seem to know a lot about me, but I can't even remember there name. What does that say about me. So here's some more information about me. I realize that I'm so not the one night stand type of guy. Have I ever had one, yes. My thing is, when I like someone I like someone. I like to keep them to myself too. When I got voted the relationship type of the last years cabin trip, I didn't understand why, but now I realize that I really present a person to be in a good relationship with. Notice I said present; reason being, I will like hard, but I will also fall out quick if its something I see thats going to be a problem. I have so much to right about that deals with Miami. The whole reason I bring up this one night stand thing is because, Who plans a date when they meet someone in miami and then go on it? "Lil old me" Well, I have to get back to work, TBC.

Here's something for you....

Wow, it's been a while since I've blogged. Lets talk about why I'm single. Initiation is the key reason why I'm unhappy in a lot of areas. I have dated several people but none of these people initiate anything. I'm always the one to call and say, "hey, lets go to a movie, out to eat, or something fun." I always remember the small things, like their favorite candy. I have found three people that that have show some initiative and I've been in three relationships. I also started thinking about what I've done for my friends. I always throw parties for my friends birthday, graduations, promotions, going away party, etc. I can't recall one time they did the same for me. Lesson I try to teach everyone else, "everyone's not going to thing and react to things like you do." All I need in my life is a little initiation.

Cabin Trip 2010

So we are going on another cabin trip this year. I know I said that I would not plan another one, but everyone requested that I did and I'm affraid to let someone else plan it. 1. I'm not sure if I can trust someone else to do it. 2. Some people will not be willing to go if I wasn't planning it. Already, we are running into some of the same issues as last year, certain people want to go but never have their money ready. I know I don't make the most, especially with me recently quiting my second job, but $110.00 is not much. Especially to include a weekend with all food, and unlimited alcohol. I spend that much on a Saturday night out with friends.

Dinner $45.00
Club $20.00
Drinks $25.00
After club Waffle house $10.00

I don't know half the people that are going so thats going to make it pretty interesting. One of my bestfriends are going but the other one is not. I'm so happy Sibel is not going this year, she stirs up some shit every year. I have to admitt, she does make the trip memorable. This year, I hope that it's memorable in a different way. I look forward to lots of drinking, games, and competitions. I don't want to do all the cooking this year. I get so tired of that. I don't get to go on the trip for free so why should I work it. A matter of fact, I alway end up using some of my own money to cover things. Not this year baby. Any ways. This should be a great fun trip. I got two new Judies, Errol and Quinton, so its going to be one mo.

Let 2010 Begin.

I haven't wrote anything in a long time. Now that I look back at 2009, I have learned a lot over the past 16 months. Yes, I said 16 not 12. So my year has started off simular to 2009. I have found someone that I enjoy getting to know and we will see where it leads from there. Let my friends tell it, we are already together. LOL. HIT IT. I'm so looking for change this years. Increase, advancement, growth, release, and favor. I don't even know what to write about right now. Here are a few of my goals.

1. I have to work on my health. Work out and get this body right
2. Attend church more frequently
3. Keep my friends close andrelease those negative things.
4. Pay off bills
5. Spend more time with my family. (Esp. the boys)
6. Increase my income.
7. Finish School
8. Work on music
9. Work on websit
10. Learn how to cook better.

I know it is a small list, but this is what I want on top of peace and happiness. So back to this mistery person. This is someone that I've held a few short conversations with out and about, via facebook, etc. We finally got the opportunity to sit down and talk and I found out that they had just as much in interest in me as I did in them. We have been hanging pretty hard. My bestfriend said that he was happy to have his bestfriend back. I have to admitt, since my last real relationship, I have not been the same. I changed dramatically and I'm so happy to be able to see a light out of that dark time. I'm glad this person can be a part of bringing that light, but I thank God most for helping me get to the point to be able to realize where I was and where I want to be. Thanks friends and family for all your support. I think all that has need to be release and cast out of my life has been done.