Little Box.

Little box little box, how'd you get so full?
How did I manage to stuff all my memories inside of you.
One thing I can say about your, is you're the most positive person I know.
You're full of great memories, trips to Florida, pictures, cards, movie tickets, receipts. Maybe that's why I guess I only remember the bad things. You've taken all the good things away, concealed them, and locked them high up in a closet to keep them out of my site. Now that I think of it, while I was experiencing these great things, you still took them away from me. Why? So that I could collect these great memories and come back to look at them when it's way to late to try to enjoy them. At that point, all I'll be able to do is remember and think about "what went wrong". Oh little box you are so positive but so selfish. Always trying to keep the good to yourself. But I guess its that easy. Right after each of these experiences, I just stored them inside of you. Valentines day, In the box. Birthday, in the box. The trip to the aquarium or zoo, in the box. If I didn't know any better, I'd say that this little box has stolen my heart. I guess that's the only thing missing in the box, my heart. Little box little box, how'd you get so full?

What if I'm wrong?

What if I'm wrong? That's a damn good statement. Its a statement that you shouldn't live by, but one that you should live by? The reason I say that is because, if you have to ask yourself, what if your wrong, then you have not did all you can to make sure you have all the knowledge you need. So what if I was wrong for ending my relationship? What if I was suppose to embrace it and not end it on selfish terms? What if it was suppose to end of being something great. What if I was to give my heart to the one who gave their heart to me? What if I was wrong? What if I was supposed to move to Dallas? What if I was suppose to stay at home instead of move out? What if I was wrong about my major? Thats an obvious one. What if I was wrong for that first night? What if I was wrong for asking you that question? What if I'm wrong about being able to be friends with your ex's? What if I'm supose to be married? What if I'm wrong for introducing my lil brother to the events in this life that I see take people down everyday? What If I'm wrong for not introducing him to things so that he will know what to look out for? What if I'm wrong for not telling my friends, family, and love ones everything? What if I'm Wrong.

Introducing, Me.

So I decided to start blogging while I was at work to get a lot of stuff off my chest. I hope that this will release some stress for me. I have so much to say and I don't know where to start. Let me just say that I have been experiencing a new lifestyle for the past 7 years and it has been some journey. I must say my life before that was boring. All I did was work and make straight A's. On the outside I still had an outgoing personality, but on the inside, I was unhappy. So with my new experience, I've learned how to Love, be in love, and experience heart ache. A lot of people my get mad about this blog, but this is me Raw. So today my thoughts are going to be random because I have so much on my mind about the past, present, and future. In the past, I used to pick a goal and didn't stray from it. Now, I don't even know how to pic a goal and I def don't know how to stay on the right path to accomplishing that goal. There is More of Me to come. I have a meeting to go to.